Almost Perfect Life

I told PB – I don’t want a perfect life – I want an almost perfect life only! hahhaha!! yes – it’s me going on again. After all, no one has a perfect life right? but one can always wished for an almost perfect right with Mr Almost Perfect. So what am I trying to say here? Many people write and asked me about migrating to Canada – and they asked me – but it’s better than in Malaysia or Singapore right? No corruption and not so much stress from the over-achieving standards required by the Singaporeans?

I guess the grass is always greener on the other side – I watched a video this morning made by John Chow about his dotcom lifestyle and I also read Karen Cheng’s blog this afternoon – they all looked so perfect – and at the back of my mind – I wanna be in California – by the water – and like Karen Cheng in Australia/Sydney but I’m not – I’m in Canada – where it’s starting to get cold already and fall haven’t even began.

My toasted bread as you can see is not always perfectly toasted each morning – either. PB doesn’t smile always either – neither is he always romantic. Chloe is not always a good kid – she can be a brat at times. I don’t get enough rest neither do I get enough help with Chloe like I would if I was back home with family and friends. Nor do I get the food I wanna eat so much. Almost perfect life – I’m far from it – but things could have been worst right? a lot worst! so no – I’m not gonna dwell on the negative – and migrating may seems a perfect solution for a lot of people – but it’s not perfect – no where is. So I hope this answer some of your questions?

Take Charge Of My Health

I feel like I’m coming down with a cold – you see Chloe just had a chloe not too long ago – but it’s the constant sick customers – that comes in and hack at us – that I think made me sick. I really have to take charge of my health – take more vitamins, exercise and learn more about cleansing my body and getting toxins out. After all, we eat out so much and just let our body be on auto-pilot and think that everything is alright. Yes! i have to learn to live a healthier lifestyle – coz’ I hate to be sick!!

When i Think Of The Good Times …

The bad ones comes along – have you heard of that before? hahah!! FB is a fantastic social networking tool – I’ll have to tell you. A few months ago, I not only found my childhood friend on FB by accident – just a few days ago – I found a cousin on FB. I also talk with my god-daughters on FB – although I’m not always on FB these days. But yes! i thought of connecting with my cousin – from my dad’s side of the family – but when I think of the good times we had as kids – the bad ones comes along as an adult. You see we were never closed – in fact the only memory of my cousins were when my grandmother was still alive and they would come visit my grandmother.

My cousins father was a meant man till he lost all his money in gambling. When he was broke – my mother came to his aid – and I still don’t understand why she did it – because we could ill-afford to help anyone. Anyhow – I gave it a lot of thought – and decided not to re-connect with them – and let old ties die there – afterall, I have my mother’s side of the family I’m closed with – so I’m not gonna dwell on the past.

Battle With My Weight

Many of you who knows me – know that I’m not on Facebook or playing Facebook games like fishville or cafeworld like for almost 2 months. Many of you are also curious to find out what I’ve been up to as well – since I don’t update my status on Facebook that much either. That’s because I’m battling with my weight and health issue and want to spend more time taking care of myself – instead of sitting in front of the computer. As it is I already spend a lot of time in front of the computer – so no – I took charge of my life and said to myself – I’m gonna start eating right and exercising. I also look into taking diet pills to help supplement my effort and I’m happy to report that I’ve lost 3kg in 1.5 months.

Yesterday, when I had gone to see my family doctor to get a prescription for my “crazy” meds – she was quite pleased with the weight lost but insisted that I have to still see the psychologist. I’m not seeing a psychiatrist but a psychologist – according to my new family doctor a psychologist is like a consultant – to evaluate my condition. So no I’m not being treated by a psychiatrist – just an evaluation and it was something I wanted to do too because I was having anxiety attacks. So there you have it – I’m just taking care of myself and Chloe better that’s all and thank you all who have written and asked about my well-being.

Mixed Marriages

I had an interesting talk with a new customer who came in to rent some movies with us – he too is in a mixed marriage and asked me if I had any trouble as a immigrant in Canada. This is a nice little town – as you can see in this picture – a little backwards – a little outta the way – and don’t look very promising at this time. But 11 years ago – when I first arrived – this town was thriving and it was a busy street – but instead of moving forward – it seems to be moving backwards.

So did I have any trouble migrating here? Most people are nice to me – PB’s family and extended ones are very nice. They were curious at first – and understandable – but some people in this town are quite ignorant. Just because I look like Chinese – they think I am from China – nothing wrong with that – don’t get me wrong. But their impression of China is a backward country with people working in rice field I am guessing. But like any place – when you migrate – people are curious but they get use to you. Once or twice -I’ve been called names but that’s understandable too and some “customers” would try and bully me – but they are so mistaken – because Asians are never bullied – or will never stand to be bullied. But they also quickly learned this – and they still try sometimes – but all these years here – PB has learned to be more vocal and protective now – so I feel I am in a good place where this town is concerned. Mixed marriages can be very trying – but when you decide to migrate – you must already know – it’s not a bed of roses – and if you don’t know yet – or thinking – you should now expect it – It’s never a bed of roses in any relationship.

Teenagers & Acne

I was a very lucky teenager that didn’t need any acne serum when i was young, unfortunately, my brothers – well – they were different – they needed a lot of help. But some 30 years ago – we didn’t think of seeing a dermatologist or any doctor – we thought that it would go away – when they grew older. Well, now they have scars on their faces – which isn’t good at all – luckily they are guys. So when PB’s cousin – a girl had the same problems – we looked into some good acne serum to find the best one for her. You know it’s not easy being a teenager – and having to deal with acne can be even harder. So I had helped them read up more on what to get – afterall, I have a daughter too – and Chloe will be a teenager too – i’m keeping my fingers crossed – but you never know eh.

Making Time To Take Care Of Myself

Certainly not easy – and I’m sure every mom out there can agree with me. But today – I went for a regular check up with my family doctor – and she too agree that I have to take time to take care of myself and my needs. She said I should go and take a short break – I agreed with her totally – didn’t do nothing this summer – because PB was too busy with the store. 11 yrs in Canada and when i left my watch at the store last night – i realized the rest of it 4 of them that i have – all didn’t have working batteries. If I were home – it would certainly have been different – i could bring it to a watch store and get them replaced. Here I have to depend on PB to get the batteries and do it for me – no watch store here *sigh*. So yes! I believe my health problems stems from not being able to do thing for myself and being efficient. Time to make some changes – and first step already been taken – losing weight and eating right. The next a short vacation – soon. Stay tuned !

French Maid For Halloween

Halloween costumes are all up for sale everywhere in the mall and I’m tempted to dress up too this year. Last year – the girlfriends all dressed up for Halloween – and some were in a cat woman costume – another was in a french maid costumes and had joke that this costume comes in handy for other occasions too – like spicing up their love life and we had a good laugh about it too. So this year – I told the spouse – we should join in the fun with Chloe and get dress up too – afterall, we are never too old to be in costumes right? and it’s HALLOWEEN!!! so what kind of costume will you be in ? let me know eh.

Making Time To Play

I didn’t grow up playing with my dad – because he never came home – well, maybe once a year – but still we never play – nor read a book or anything. He comes home – my mom would serve him dinner – and then we all would already be packed in the room and getting ready for bed even though it is 7pm in the evening and the sun i still out. Yes ! we were that obedient – yet – my dad never appreciated it.

My siblings and I grew up being afraid of my dad – because he was only home to punish us – therefore, I never want Chloe to grow up this way – because it sure was a sad way to grow up. But we are always so busy at work – even though chloe comes to work with us everyday – therefore, we make sure we stop and play with her – even if we were busy. I also want Chloe to grow up to know her grandparents – so I make PB call his parents – to take her for a few hours if they can’t for more – that way – she doesn’t grow up not having played with her grandparents like myself. I grew up with regrets – regrets that i didn’t know my grandparents, my dad nor my cousins and relatives – so I don’t want history to repeat itself – I want Chloe to have a good childhood – so making time to play is an important exercise that I practice because of Chloe – what about you? is your spouse too busy to play with your daughter? if he is – make him make time – I do.

First Day In Grade One

So we survived the first day back at school yesterday – in fact even better than I thought. This morning – Chloe said she didn’t want to bring her teddy to school no more – and no more sippy cups too. Woohoo!!! my girl is growing up eh? All the fuss about the sippy cup from her old school/teacher – and like we said – when she is ready – she will say no to the sippy cup – but nope – the ex-teacher – just won’t let go. Thankfully, her new teacher from last year – didn’t say a thing about it.

This year – Mrs Boudreau is also in her class and a new teacher – but Chloe already said she liked her new teacher even before school started – apparently – she already met her new teacher last year and thought that she was nice. Yesterday morning – when we met up with the new teacher – she was really nice – so we are quite happy about it. I foresee Chloe going some changes but I am confident she will do well this year – keeping our fingers crossed.