Yes! call me crazy but I think if you see some cheap macanudo cigars online, you might as well start shopping for Christmas now. I know that some of the extended family loved the cigars during Christmas time and special occasion, so I figured it would be handy to have on hand when we get invited to Christmas parties or Halloween ones. I only buy things when they are on sale or if they are dirt cheap for I cannot justify buying expensive stuff. What about you? are you starting soon? I’m hoping that this year I would do better than last – buy shopping systematically.
Home Made Jam For Thanksgiving
So Thanksgiving is round the corner and I’m at a lost as what to get for her new teachers this year. This year Chloe is in Grade 3 – she is in an upstairs class and everything is new with her even her teacher and her teacher’s aid. I didn’t want to not give anything because we do what to give thanks to good teachers for our children right? and in the end we decided on some home made jam made by Grampie – I thought that wasn’t too shabby. Of course I paid grampie for the Jam and went home and gotten both PB and Chloe to decorate the Jam bottles but they didn’t do it the way I wanted them to. So when Chloe went to bed that night I re-did the whole shaping up the bottles to make them look pretty. So they are all ready for giving away to the teachers on Friday.
A 100 Acres Land
The father-in-law has a 100 acres of land and he wants to donate land to charity when he is no longer around – I think that is a very good idea don’t you? But I doubt the rest of the family is going to think the same way. But if that is his will, we have to make sure that it would be carried out. We had asked him if he meant all the 100 acres or just some of his land and his reply is always the same, so I guess he is sober and sane right? I like the idea even though some friends think that we are being too generous because some part of his land are lakeside land and I know he owns an island here too somewhere. But we don’t need the money nor do we have the time to take care of 100 acre of land, so why not do something good in this life right? I’m all for it.
Visiting Grampie & Summer Gardening
We visited Grampie today even though we had loads of housework to do. Firstly, because we were away for 2 weekends and secondly – we wanted to make sure he was alright. It’s so strange not seeing Grammie around for the summer – I remembered how she was so worried about the garden one year – that even when I was in the hospital – she insisted on going back to help Grampie with the peas and getting the veggies ready for sale for the summer.
Grampie had hired someone to help him but of course, he is nothing like Grammie – afterall, Grammie and Grampie had their own momentum already after being married for so many years.
Grampie is doing the best he can – I’m hoping he will hang on – because people always say when you are marry for so long and one go first – the other tend to go soon too. I’m so worried and as much as I want to spend more time with Grampie – there is just so much work for us to do on our own too. *sigh*
Families Are Important
We just came home from an awesome wedding in Moncton, New Brunswick and met up with PB’s extended family – they were a lovely bunch of people. This year we decided to go because Grammie is no longer with us – and I wished we had gone up to Moncton with her – in another wedding last year. Little did we know that she was so sick and would have left us so soon. Seeing PB’s extended family makes me realized more how important it is to be there for the family and know the extended family. I’ve always thought that we would be taking care of our in-laws when they grow old and need help with their daily care but we didn’t get a chance to do it for grammie – and even though it had been only 5 months since she left – I still cannot believe that she is really gone forever. So from now on – we will have to take care of grampie and buy all the home care products he will need in the future for him. I’m proud of Grampie because he is holding up so well – he is staying strong and busy. For those who have a chance to get to spend time and get to know their extended family – don’t take them for granted.
Father’s Day Without Grammie
Today marks the first Father’s day without Grammie and many more to come. Sad of course and we wanted to make sure that Grampie wasn’t alone on this day. So we had a BBQ and the last time we had a BBQ at Grammie and Grampie’s, Grammie was still around and I believed it was last year’s Father’s day. Sad. But Grammie isn’t forgotten like Chloe said – she is always around in our heart and she is alive in Heaven according to Chloe – so sweet yet so sad. I told PB that this summer I wanna create memories for Chloe – and not just concentrate on making money alone. You cannot make all the money -but you definitely can make memories with Chloe.
Dealing With Grammie’s Death 3 Months
It has been about 3 months since we buried Grammie – and Chloe is doing much better this month than she did the last 2. This week when we were heading out to visit Grampie – she said to me – that she missed her Grammie – I replied I understand. I haven’t written much about Grammie’s death because I myself am still trying to come in terms with it. I still cannot believed that she is gone and so fast – so unbelievable – she died so fast 2.5 weeks only. Part of me is saying – WHAT THE HELL! I don’t always see eye to eye with Grammie but having known and getting involved in her life so intimately for the last 10 years still leaves me feeling rather empty.
PB and Grampie seems to be handling it really well though – maybe it is just me – finding it hard as usual to let go – it’s probably just all in my head – and also there are just so much things that we haven’t spoken nor done together with her. So much difference during our visits now without Grammie – she is definitely missed. Now when we visit – we have to make sure we find something for everyone to eat – and we served ourselves – although I’ve only washed dishes once after Grammie died. But yes, a lot of difference – especially for Chloe – so we all try to do stuff with her – when we visit – so she won’t feel lonely or start missing her Grammie again.
Cool Welding Helmet For Brother-In-Law
If you’ve met my brother-in-law, Richard – you will find that he and PB are 2 totally different people. While PB loves his games and computer – Richard loves his outdoors and being rugged. We haven’t really bought anything good for Richard for the longest time because we never really know what he wants – for he does have everything and he doesn’t really need a lot except for outdoor stuff. So when I saw this cool welding helmet from miller welders and remembered how he likes to work on his trucks and 4 wheelers – I figured this would be a cool gift to get him for his birthday that is just round the corner. I rather get him something he would like and would use than some useless thing – so PB and I would share in buying him this welding helmet and I know he would loved it.
A Lovely 47 Birthday
I had a lovely birthday with family and friends – and being easter – it was even more meaningful. Friends visited our home today – and presented me with gifts and look at all the cakes for my birthday. 4 birthday cakes – what a lucky birthday girl I am.
Cousin George came for supper at Aunt Helena’s and it was really fun with them around – at least they played with Chloe and made her laugh.
Look at chloe enjoying her cake with family friend Jeff – busy taking pictures.
This is John – cousin George’s partner – a lovely, lovely man.
And of course PB – trying to avoid a smile but I got a smile outta him. I had a wonderful birthday – too bad grammie isn’t around – that was the only sad part and Grampie wasn’t feeling too good – I was worried for him when I left tonite.
Moments Of Sadness After Lost Of Grammie
A month and a half ago Chloe lost her grammie to cancer – she passed away so quickly, Chloe didn’t really get to say goodbye properly. Because of that she may seems happy to everyone but there are moments of sadness and doubt that would overcome her during the day. So I monitor closely to make sure that she is emotionally taken care of – and to make sure I am there for her when she is sad or needs a question to be answered.
Although PB said it is normal for her to be grieving and I know it is – I find that he is more relax than i am with Chloe emotionally, maybe it is a man thing – but I have to double up and do PB’s part as well. Just a few weeks ago, she asked if grampie is going to get married again? Today she asked if I was going to die and leave her – she said she was worried. I promised her that I loved her too much to die and then caught myself from saying more – because I’m sure her grammie didn’t want to leave her too – so as parents we have to watch what we say – and how we explain things to a child – who is only 8 yrs old and dealing with death for the first time. Please pray for Chloe – pray that she can find comfort and that she will only think of the good times she had with grammie.