It has been about 3 months since we buried Grammie – and Chloe is doing much better this month than she did the last 2. This week when we were heading out to visit Grampie – she said to me – that she missed her Grammie – I replied I understand. I haven’t written much about Grammie’s death because I myself am still trying to come in terms with it. I still cannot believed that she is gone and so fast – so unbelievable – she died so fast 2.5 weeks only. Part of me is saying – WHAT THE HELL! I don’t always see eye to eye with Grammie but having known and getting involved in her life so intimately for the last 10 years still leaves me feeling rather empty.
PB and Grampie seems to be handling it really well though – maybe it is just me – finding it hard as usual to let go – it’s probably just all in my head – and also there are just so much things that we haven’t spoken nor done together with her. So much difference during our visits now without Grammie – she is definitely missed. Now when we visit – we have to make sure we find something for everyone to eat – and we served ourselves – although I’ve only washed dishes once after Grammie died. But yes, a lot of difference – especially for Chloe – so we all try to do stuff with her – when we visit – so she won’t feel lonely or start missing her Grammie again.