Neither Here Nor There

My burner at the store is constantly lighted up – to keep me calm – even though PB think it is to make the store smell nice – well it does – so I let him think so. The general election is just round the corner and I’ve been reading up a lot about it. My Singapore passport had been renewed in New York High Comm and was sent back to me via courier. It’s a 5 yrs renewal now and not 10 like it used to be. I asked myself if I should vote – since I’m in Canada – but truth be told – I don’t really feel like a Singaporean no more. Why? i can’t imagine going home for good – for it’s too expensive to live in Singapore – but having said that – I don’t really feel at home in Canada either. I always feel like a guest here – even though my true loves are here. The spouse said i think too much – maybe it’s true – I should just go with the flow – and not think too much.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everyone ! This is Chloe getting ready to go to church for the Easter hunt and then headed over to Grammie’s and Grampie’s for another hunt and then supper there. Every year’s Easter is much more enjoyable for Chloe now that she understand the hunting of the easter eggs – but this year – she knows that Easter Bunny wasn’t gonna bring her any toys but chocolates and candies because she admitted that she has got too much toys. The dress is from her Kai Mah Lina – from Singapore and this is the first time she is wearing it. Her grampie said she was all dressed up fancy today – hahah!!

Time has really flown – she is still our baby but yet look at her – she is all grown up – it seems only yesterday that she was still a toddler learning how to walk. She is as naughty as ever – and so whiny – she would win the contest for the Whiniest child hands down. But she is also adorable, cute and most times very funny – we count our blessings every day – and Easter today – also reminds us of all the blessings we’ve received indirectly because of Chloe. All we wished for Chloe is to be healthy, happy and honest.

I Wanna Be A Happy Mom !!

Who doesn’t want to be a happy mom right? but with so many things going on with one’s life – it is more a conscious thing than saying – I will be happy if and when. So now that things had gotten a bit more calm at the store – no more employees to worry about woohoo!! I am able to tell myself or rather force myself to look after myself first too. You see, like all moms – when i go shopping – and with every good intention – I walk into the mall wanting to get something for myself earnestly but ends up with stuff for Chloe or the store – or even the spouse. I sometimes, get Grammie’s pepsi first rather than my own personal items *smack, smack” – yup I’m this way. Many people including myself thinks that when so and so is happy, I will be happy too – but we cannot be more wrong! because how can the other person be happy if you are not? just like chloe or PB – how can they be happy – when I’m always grouchy or screaming or stressing out myself right? So yes! this year I’ve consciously taken care of myself and doing the things that I need to do for myself first – it’s not easy – I still fall back to my old routine and thinking – but I’m doing it – so half the battle won there. So remember girls – if you want to be a happy mom – you have to stop, breathe – and spend time for yourself and treat yourself – in other words – love yourself today!

Explaining Death To Kids

We passed by the cemetery today – and Chloe who had been obsessed with death lately asked PB why is there so many dead people at the cemetery and she also wants to know if we were gonna buried her there – when she dies. We’ve not been very good in explaining to her about death and in fact had been avoiding it – because Chloe had been a little dramatic since her cousin’s sudden death last year. At one point – Chloe had said she felt like “killing” herself – and PB had shouted at her and told her never to say something like that – because her cousin Nick had done just that – and that was unforgivable! Yes! trauma or what!

Anyhow, what made me really sad was that she wanted her to get her pink flowers to be put on her grave when she dies! *sigh* – so I knew that we had to explain death clearer to her – without traumatizing her further. But how the heck do you tell a 7 yrs old about death – and how would she deal with it? So we tried – but then Chloe told her that her Aunt Helena told her that everyone dies at some point *slap forehead* – so she wants to know when she will die – and what if we died ? so what is going to happen to her ? she started wailing and said she didn’t want us to die – so we had to stop. Now we have to go and find out from Grammie what Aunt Helena said to Chloe and then try again another time – in a different setting and in a different way but yes ! we read more about it – talked to our doctor about it and will try again – when the question is being asked again.

Spring Weddings

Spring weddings are so beauty – don’t you think? we’ve just attended one of a close friend and it was absolutely beautiful – despite the fact that the weather was still a bit too chilly for our liking. But the bride was beautiful and the designer bridesmaid dresses were to die for! I told PB that had I known that the bridemaid dresses were so gorgeous – I would have begged to be one of the bride’s maid – hahhaha!! But it was a beautiful wedding and everything was perfect – even the wedding cake were yummy and gorgeous. The bride and groom served us the wedding cake themselves and it was definitely a very nice gesture. The couple was the sweetest and I wish them happiness always.

Officially 10 Years In Canada

So in May 15 2011 – I’ve been officially in Canada for 10 yrs. Yes! I came back here to Y-Town – after he spent 5 weeks in Asia with me. We traveled a bit around Asia – before coming back here – to a cold and wet town. Time did fly – and many asked me – how did I end up in Y-Town when I could be anywhere in the world. Isn’t it strange how one’s life turn out to be? is it really destiny ? or did I worked towards it? Many also asked if I had any regrets – because Y-town is such a small town and quite backwards with no food from home and high rise or even great shopping centers.

I missed a lot of things from home to be honest – mostly, the food, the weather and of course the people (family) from home. I also missed the freedom of being able to get from one place to another with public transport and the advance medical care in Singapore.

But 10 yrs – is a very long time not to miss home (Singapore) but the spouse’s business is doing well and if I didn’t come to Canada – I wouldn’t have such a lovely daughter nor would I have a spouse who respect me the way PB does and let me go crazy whenever I want. But PB is a good father and spouse – and I don’t think the combination I can find anywhere else – he is an honest person – with very little bad habits or flaws. No one is perfect – neither am I – so if he can bear with my craziness – I think I shouldn’t complained – I should count my blessings eh. So here’s to another 10 yrs in Canada!

The Birthday Boy! My Ex-Boss

My ex-boss was from Greece but migrated to Spain because he fell in love with a lovely woman from Spain – and I do keep in touch with him – because he treated me really well – during the 3 yrs I worked with him. He was always fair to me – and never treated me like an employee and I had the same benefits as the engineers in our company. From traveling to expenditures – I was able to claim just about anything the engineers claimed. His birthday is round the corner and I know he like cigars for he always gets a box when he flies from one place to another for work – I’ve never seen someone who knows so much about cigars like him. My ex-boss – dear Mr Hernandez is turning 70 this year and I am going to get him some middleton black and mild cigars this year for his birthday, I hope he likes it and why try to stop the man at this age from enjoying something he liked so much right? And I do like the smell of cigar as compared to regular cigarettes. Happy birthday! Mr Hernandez.

Birthday Plans & Travel

I told PB that when my birthday comes – I want to celebrate it in Halifax – although after visiting NC’s website , I would very much like to spend my birthday in North Carolina instead – with the beach and the son. I know it’s going to be warmer in North Carolina and my best friend lived there – but because we own our own business – me being only owner by association, we can’t just close shop and leave. So yes ! we do have travel plans in the near future for my birthday and as much as I would like to fly on an airplane – that would just have to wait for a bit longer. For those who’ve never been to North Carolina – you have to visit it sometime and if we did go – we are going to get one of those vacation homes instead of staying in a hotel. So much cheaper and a lot more convenient if you want to cook or do your laundry int he meantime. But for this birthday trip, I’m going to visit Annie’s Cafe in Halifax – so stay tuned – while i tell you about this little cafe in Queens Street.

My Daughter Changed My Life

From the day I started to get pregnant – this cute as a button lil’ gal changed my life. She made me a better person – originally, I’m already a person who love kids – but because of Chloe – I love kids even more. As I see Chloe growing up – I also become more careful with my words and actions – because whatever I do or say – she is going to learn from me. I also learned to be a lot more patient with everything around me and even when I am mad with someone in the family – I won’t say anything in front of her because I don’t want her to think badly of anyone. Chloe make me want to be the best person – so that she will grow up to be the same – honest, truthful and someone with integrity – who is willing to help others when the need arises. As I watch her sleep each night – I cannot help but feel a sense of pride – for this cute lil’ button is my child to hold, hug and kiss. This child will love me back unconditionally – this child will hug me and tell me she loves me and misses me. Only your own kid will do all the above – so love your kids the way you want them to love you back.

Family Time @ Bowling Alley

There really isn’t very much to do in this town – and Chloe dislike shopping during the weekends – she said it is boring! well, until she finds something she likes and wants to buy it -hahah!! Plus Sundays are meant for relaxing and cleaning the house – so it can be quite the battle with time. But last week, Chloe suggested that we go bowling and we all did – after all, bowling is a really fun game for all of us. Well, despite the fact that the bowling balls are so small and the technology is like in the 70s – hahah!! yes ! i kid you not. Well, the most important thing is spending time together right? But yes, we are doing something out of our daily routine and the best part is we get to exercise a little and be a wee bit active. Chloe said we are not active enough – if only we have half as much energy as she does.