Nick’s funeral is tomorrow – as I logged into facebook and see how the well-wishes from his friends – i know he was a very popular fella and very loved and liked. As I sit here – thinking of Nick – I also remembered what my family doctor had said yesterday about dealing with grief. Am I grieving for Nick? if I am – how would his family be dealing with it? if it is hard for me – it must be 1000 times harder for them. My heart goes out to the extended family.
We are unable to attend Nick’s funeral tomorrow – because Chloe was all nerves going on the airplane. I wished we could go – to show our support – afterall, this is what family is all about right? I wanna send him off and say my goodbyes too – but in a way – this may be better – because already I cannot forget his face. For the last few days – I see Nick’s face everywhere, I am dealing with his lost too and although we don’t see him often – my heart just feels so heavy – an unanswerable sadness deep within.
My doctor wants me to talk to my therapist about it – she said it was very important to do it – because grieve comes in different level and stages and in the years to come – there may be things we can do for the extended family as well. Grief – how do one deal with a death – so young and so, so sad.