Do you remember the times.. when you try to bargain with God.. by telling him.. Dear Father, if you do this and this… i will go back to church.. i promise or Dear Father, if this and this turn out the way I want.. i promise to go back to church every Sunday.
Yes.. that’s me..! I’m very guilty..! when i needed God.. i always bargain with him and my God has never failed me.
I’ve been here for almost 5 christmases now.. and i remember promising God.. that if Chloe turned out normal…. meaning got all her fingers and toes.. and eyes.. and ears and mouth.. and not austism.. or challenged… I PROMISED to bring Chloe up .. knowing God.. and going to Sunday School every Sunday.
Chloe is 2 yrs old now….. and i’ve yet to keep to my end of the bargain..! It has always been at the back of my mind… to find a good church for Chloe .. and bring her for Sunday School. But we are always tied down by so many problems with our employees.. that i’ve had to shelve it… everytime.
Finally, deciding not to hire anyone no more .. but work ourselves more….. since we have a reliable babysitter and my MIL’s help…. there should currently be no issues.. that should be stopping me.. from keeping my promise that I made 2 yrs ago…… when I was in labour.
Perhaps with all the problems we had been facing.. was actually God telling us not to depend on our employees too much.. and do things on our own..??? My only regret is …. the store is not a conducive place .. to bring Chloe in for a long time… and i have to leave her with my babysitter or MIL for 4 – 5hrs…. some days. I do not enjoy that at all….. but i guess as Chloe grows older….it would probably be easier to keep her occupied at the store….. and bring her along with us .. to the store. Seriously, I do not enjoy the idea of feeding the brat take out 2 meals a day.. so hopefully, when she does sleep better.. and when she is older.. i will be able to cook more for her.. if i didn’t need to wake up with her half the nite.
Anyhow..in the meantime, i am looking out for a good church to go to .. with my daughter every Sunday.