So I saw a psychologist about my anxiety attacks – which I haven’t had for a long time now – but my family doctor figures I should talk to someone – and maybe – they can teach me methods to control my anxiety attacks – besides the medication I am taking. For those who are wondering – I had asked for treatment and medication on my own – because I pride myself as being able to identify a problem and try to nip its bud from the beginning. I didn’t want my anxiety attacks to affect chloe mostly because I had it bad the last time I experienced it.
Anyhow, at the back of my mind – I know exactly what the problem is – and all these years – I’ve been pushing it at the back of my mind. I’m able to identify the problem and I cannot ask PB to change for me – because I have in the past – so this time I’m going to change for myself and learn to take even greater care of myself first. I shall strive to have the “tidak apa” attitude from now on – and only do things that will first take care of myself. You cannot hope for others to help you – you have to change – only you can change yourself – to help with your health situation. So there – I realized that – and hope it isn’t too late. And yes – I missed home and my friends back home – the familiarity – the food – so I will strive to go home soon for a long visit. Wait for me Singapore!