Category: This Town

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It Hasn’t Been Easy For Him

I looked back at some of the photos that I had taken of PB – and there are so many that he never really had a smile on him – besides the ones – from when we first got together. The pictures we took then were genuine smile – happy ones – but after being together for so many years – the smiles weren’t real anymore. I don’t really know if he is unhappy or what? but for sure I know it isn’t easy for him either as it is not for me. As much as I want to go home and bitch about it all the time – it must not be easy for him to keep hearing me nag about it all the time and making him feel like he failed me.

But when I nag and long for home it wasn’t meant to make him feel bad or that he failed me – but because I need him to know that I really need to make a trip home. 11 yrs is a long time – to not go home for a break. I know it’s not easy because of the business and all and we are just getting caught up and starting to make bigger plans for our future – and our trip back home – may put us right back from the start – I know all that. Therefore – PB really needs to let me make trip to the city – else it’s just gonna drive me nuts – not even having frozen dim sum!

This picture was taken during the weekend – and this smile was the one I recognized from when we first got together. I guess it was a happy weekend for us – even though we didn’t make it up the city – but at least we shopped and visited the Leblanc’s and he did everything that I want. I hope to see PB smile like that all the time too – but I do miss home and especially the food. *shrug* So if you think the other side is greener – think again.

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Winter Is Coming Too Soon

It’s so cold for the last one week – we had to get oil put into the furnace and fired up the furnace today. Winter seems to be coming too soon this year – so i started reading more on glucosamine chondroitin msm – because I have mild arthritis. I think it is because after having Chloe – I never really did the 30 days confinement since I’m all alone in Canada. I had told PB about the confinement – and I had also told PB’s mother about the food that I needed to eat during the 30 days – but I guess they just don’t practice it. So whenever the weather start changing – cold like now – my bones hurt – not pain – but really sore. The price to pay eh – for migrating to such a cold place. If I could turn the clock back – I would want PB to go to Singapore and migrate there instead after all, my health is just as important as his career right?

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Shopping In The City

So we had planned to leave for the city yesterday and then head back today – but nope we didn’t go – because the rain came – and I didn’t want PB to drive in the rain – scary. But yes – we wanted to start shopping for xmas gift now – else we would not get what we want for the people we want to share Christmas with. I know you must be saying – Christmas shopping already??? but if you know us – and how busy we get during Christmas time – there is just no way to get out to the city when it draws nearer to Christmas. We were so busy – that when I was having Chloe in December some 6 year ago – I wished we could postponed the delivery date – hahahah!!! So yes! we are going to attempt to go up the city again soon – Christmas shopping this year – is going to be early !

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Keeping My Child Safe

Like any parent – I’m a bit paranoid – if I cannot see Chloe – even at the store. She may be at a corner playing by herself when our store is full – and I would panic. Are you this way? I know I am a helicopter mom and also have anxiety problems – but even with security camera at our store – as soon as I don’t see her – I would panic.

While other parents let their child run around the park freely – I keep a very close eyes on Chloe and she cannot go behind trees or the huge garbage bins they have in the park. But like all kids – they like to do their “own” stuff with other kids. So i figured – getting a child locator may be a good investment for me. At least I don’t have to worry when I bring her home to Singapore – as the mall is a lot more crowded than they are here. I can’t hang a security camera on her – but I can certainly put a tiny locator on her dress or jeans all the time right? what do you think? good idea eh? I really think that getting it will give me a peace of mind – and like my oldest friend said – if money can solve a problem – then it’s no longer a problem.

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Change Yourself

So I saw a psychologist about my anxiety attacks – which I haven’t had for a long time now – but my family doctor figures I should talk to someone – and maybe – they can teach me methods to control my anxiety attacks – besides the medication I am taking. For those who are wondering – I had asked for treatment and medication on my own – because I pride myself as being able to identify a problem and try to nip its bud from the beginning. I didn’t want my anxiety attacks to affect chloe mostly because I had it bad the last time I experienced it.

Anyhow, at the back of my mind – I know exactly what the problem is – and all these years – I’ve been pushing it at the back of my mind. I’m able to identify the problem and I cannot ask PB to change for me – because I have in the past – so this time I’m going to change for myself and learn to take even greater care of myself first. I shall strive to have the “tidak apa” attitude from now on – and only do things that will first take care of myself. You cannot hope for others to help you – you have to change – only you can change yourself – to help with your health situation. So there – I realized that – and hope it isn’t too late. And yes – I missed home and my friends back home – the familiarity – the food – so I will strive to go home soon for a long visit. Wait for me Singapore!

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Halloween Party Invitations

We are starting to receive our Halloween Party Invitations already and Halloween is a month away. Some people are really organized eh ? which makes me want to get our Christmas Party Invitations going to. Knowing what a procrastinator I am – and PB being the nonchalant type – if I don’t do it on my own – he’ll probably conveniently forget about it. So yes ! I’m ordering some special invitations soon – that way – I can start planning my Christmas menu and decide what to do for Christmas supper. I know it’s early but they say time flies and before you know it Christmas will be here. Do you have the list of people you want to invite for your Christmas party yet? I don’t – so I better start cracking.

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Park Etiquette For Adults

I really have no problems with teenagers or adults swinging on swings – swings that doesn’t say – please do not swing if you are heavier than – so many pounds. I was at the park with Chloe for 2 hours – not only did i see teenagers swinging on baby swings – I also see a parent go on those rocking hippo with their babies. Really?? are they not aware that they can break the hippo and thus other kids – cannot play with them anymore? I have also seen adults going on the swings meant for kids *slap forehead* – really!!! it is after all a public park – so shouldn’t these adults have more brains? If they break them – their kids won’t be able to swing or play on them – not only other people’s kids. Of course, I didn’t say anything – but really???

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Mixed Marriages

I had an interesting talk with a new customer who came in to rent some movies with us – he too is in a mixed marriage and asked me if I had any trouble as a immigrant in Canada. This is a nice little town – as you can see in this picture – a little backwards – a little outta the way – and don’t look very promising at this time. But 11 years ago – when I first arrived – this town was thriving and it was a busy street – but instead of moving forward – it seems to be moving backwards.

So did I have any trouble migrating here? Most people are nice to me – PB’s family and extended ones are very nice. They were curious at first – and understandable – but some people in this town are quite ignorant. Just because I look like Chinese – they think I am from China – nothing wrong with that – don’t get me wrong. But their impression of China is a backward country with people working in rice field I am guessing. But like any place – when you migrate – people are curious but they get use to you. Once or twice -I’ve been called names but that’s understandable too and some “customers” would try and bully me – but they are so mistaken – because Asians are never bullied – or will never stand to be bullied. But they also quickly learned this – and they still try sometimes – but all these years here – PB has learned to be more vocal and protective now – so I feel I am in a good place where this town is concerned. Mixed marriages can be very trying – but when you decide to migrate – you must already know – it’s not a bed of roses – and if you don’t know yet – or thinking – you should now expect it – It’s never a bed of roses in any relationship.

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Hurricane Earl Coming

Every year we are hit by some kind of hurricane – and for the last few days – warnings had been going on non-stop warning on the radio. So everyone here is speculating if it will hit us. At the morning’s forecast from the Canadian Hurricane Center – it is said to be Cat 3 for Hurricane Earl and likely to affect Atlantic Canada this weekend and we are in Atlantic Canada – for those who do not know by now.

Am I worried? Nahhh!!! we are at the lower part of Atlantic Canada and even if we do get hit – the impact will probably be very little. We will lose the power and some trees will fall down and some rain will come – but I cannot foresee us being hit big time. We survived all sorts of weather here for the last 10 yrs – i think I will survive this one. But if you don’t see me online this weekend – you will know why eh.

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Working In This Town

I have lived in this town for 10 yrs – coming 11 yrs this December and when I hear people telling me they have to move away for a job because they can’t find any suitable ones here – I sometimes wonder. You see I also know of many who has airport jobs and jobs at the hospital and they have had been there for ages now and very happy with where they are. So why is it that some cannot find a job or cannot keep a job while others are very happy with theirs? Is it the benefit from a company? or is it just the person? Is it the attitude? or is it the people who owns the business?

In the last 10 yrs – we’ve hired on many people and only a few that came along were good employees. You think you’ve seen all sorts of people – in our 11 yrs in business but not really true – we’ve yet to learn about employers and employees situation here. But I think the attitude of a person is very important don’t you? If i really wanted to keep a job when I was back home – i would put in the extra effort and extra time. Here – where I lived – people just don’t want to do anything extra – they just want to collect their pay check. In my humble opinion – if you want your boss to appreciate you – you have to appreciate your boss and go the extra mile – what do you think?