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Last nite was the worst nite ever .. with our baby chloe.. 🙁

She puked twice before 1am.. and another time at about 2am.. and she would cry and cry and cry.. and wouldn’t go to bed.. 🙁

It would almost seems like her tummy was sore .. that she cannot sleep on her tummy or her back.. she would be sound alseep on our shoulders.. but as soon as you put her down.. on her crib.. she starts crying.. 🙁

We were at a lost on wat to do .. *sigh*.. her da-da and i took turns to be with her.. and finally we were so exhausted.. from her puking.. and fussiness from the whole day.. that i had her sleep on me .. on the sofa.. she finally did fall asleep on me.. but would wake up squirming every 15mins or so.. and i had to pat her to sleep again.. and this went on till about 8am in the morning..and she refuses to stay down on the sofa with me.. so i got up.. gave her some milk.. hoping she would sleep again …. just a little more.. but she didn’t .. so by 9am.. i went up.. propped onto the bed.. and woke her da-da up.. and told him.. i can’t take it anymore.

So da-da woke up.. and stayed up with her.. and i got some rest till 12.30pm.. thank god we didn’t have to be at work till 5pm.. but today… i ain’t bringing her to work.. and if i can help it .. i ain’t bringing her to the store .. for a long time.

Hopefully .. tonite will be a better nite for us.. it’s so tiriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig!!! I could kill to get a good nite sleep.

I wished i wasn’t so tired from looking after Chloe.. I love Chloe to death.. but it’s so exhausting.. looking after her 24hrs a day.. plus when she doesn’t wanna sleep at nite.. or wakes up wee hours in the morning.. and refuses to go back to sleep.. and puke a couple of times during the day.. and fusses in the store.. when we have to work.. on top of all these… the store is busy.. so it makes a very tiring day for me.

I just wished i had more energy.. everyone who comes into the store.. just wannna stay and chat.. about something.. and then chloe would fuss even more.. because she feels left out. Or when i try feeding her.. and getting her to nap.. and inconsiderate customers would come and talk loudly to you .. or make alot of noise.. that really frustrates me. I wished i could tell them to go away.. and not take up too much of my time.. i have no time to hear stories about their life.. and wat their mother do or does.. or when their mother move or watever.. it’s too trivial.. and i have no time for small talk for those especially i don’t care for. And ppl who invite themselves into chloe’s area.. and not take off their shoes.. so .. so inconsiderate.. i sometimes just wanna scream at them.. and tell them to please think for chloe first.. afterall.. i really don’t need for them to visit us .. when we are at the store.. the store is for business.. and if they have no business.. they shouldn’t even come in… especially wrong timing and plus i still got my hives.. so you can imagine how uncomfy i was. I could smack them sometimes.

Anyhow.. we hired someone new today.. and i am hoping she would work out… coz’ i dont’ wanna lose a friend in her.. We are gonna try to be really, really patient with this new staff.

Keeping my fingers crossed .. all of my fingers i mean.. so you see how desperado i am..??!!??

My baby Chloe has got a bad temper. I was trying to feed her today .. and boy was she upset or mad.. so mad.. that she was clenching her fists and mouth and face. I am hoping she is not gonna turn out to be one of those uncontrollable kid that we have once in a while in the store.

I wonder if there is something we can do.. or is there a problem with her behaviour that she will not outgrow when she is older? i hope not.. but i used to say.. that my kid ain’t gonna misbehave like some kids we see in the store.

Chloe woke up again.. last nite.. at about 3.30am.. and refuses to go back to bed.. till about 4.45am.. but this time.. i am smart.. i took her outta the room.. so that her da-da can get some rest.. and i can sleep in.. when she wakes up in the morning.. so that worked out well for us.. 🙂

Her poor da-da .. i doubt he got enough sleep.. plus chloe is extremely needy in the morning.. so he can’t do alot when she is awake in the morning. So when i got up.. i did the bottles.. the dishes from breakfast.. and while her da-da was in the washroom.. i fed her cereal.. and then bathed her on my own.. while da-da did the recycles.. because ma-ma hates messes.

Chloe was pretty good at the store.. and i was glad she was good. because it was raining today.. and i had to continous mopped the floor and throw out buckets of water.. for the front door is still leaking.. although we tried various ways to find where the leak came from, till we gave up.

And it is not even 9pm now.. and chloe is already sleeping.. i hope she don’t wake up like she did .. because we’ve gotta open the store tomorrow, so i am keeping my fingers crossed .. real hard.

Store did good today too.. considering it was raining the whole day.

Last nite was the worst nite we ever had with Chloe.. she went to bed at about 9pm… but got up at 1am.. and didn’t wanna go back to sleep.. we would rock her.. and she would fall asleep on us.. but as soon as you put her down.. she would wake up again. And this went on.. for a few hours.. and she finally went down to bed at 5am .. this morning. Her poor da-da and I.. didn’t get much sleep.. so we are like sombie today… plus chloe got up at 9am.. this morning.. and didn’t go for a nap.. till almost 1.30pm.. *sigh* I really hope tonite.. ain’t gonna be the same *keeping my fingers crossed*

And last nite … i was wondering.. should we have trained chloe earlier.. to sleep on her own..??!!?? or are we just too .. mmmm… lenient on her.. therefore .. she have us twirl around her finger tips.

These days.. she wouldn’t let you outta her sight.. if you are near her.. she is good.. but as soon as you leave her in her own space..she would cry and scream for your attention.. till you pick her up. I really don’t mind it so much.. if i didn’t have hive… but because of my hive.. it’s driving me nuts. And plus i really have to tend to her.. when we are at the store.. because her da-da needs to work. So i really hope .. chloe would grow out of this phase really soon.. or we would have a real hard time training her to sleep and play on her own now.

Chloe grab my hand today and wanted me to help her walk .. wow!! i thought .. and she is only almost 8mths old. It was only a few weeks ago.. she learnt to crawl.. and sit up on her own.. and very quickly she learnt to pull herself up.

She is getting into everything and anything.. and she is truly our little explorer.. coming to visit us.. when we are in the kitchen.. and throwing her tantrums when things are taken away from her.

We see two lower middle teeth coming out.. they are pretty stubborn i can tell.. and refuses to come out.. so it has been bugging her for the last few weeks.. but she has been our little trooper.. because we had to let our babysitter go.. due to various reasons.. so she goes to work with us now.. and has a little play area.. we did up for her.. with another set of toys.. playpen.. tv, dvd for her einstein movies.. we pretty up the area.. lay down a carpet… so that she can crawl around .. and have another exersaucer .. for her to bounce herself in.. if we are busy with customers.. but she doesn’t like to be left alone at all.. but with that little play area.. it is easier on mummy’s back.. because carrying her for a few hours.. is certainly no fun.. now mummy can relax.. when chloe goes down for her nap.. 🙂

Chloe is growing so fast.. and learning so quickly .. she even knows how to clap her hands now.. 🙂 And i do teach her some chinese and cantonese words.. so she knows wat bao bao means.. and pai pai soh means.. 🙂 In the meantime, i am gonna strive and hope that some of my asian tradition will prevail.

I have too many errands to run and too many things i need to buy … whether its for home, food or for Chloe.. I can’t seems to remember all of them.

I write them down on a post it note .. but when I am doing my errands… i feel like I am in such a rush.. to get everything done.. that I am outta breath sometimes.

And then on our way home.. i remember .. oops..!! So am i losing my mind .. or just not getting enough rest..????
I think I worry too much and wanna get too much done.. while my spouse is too easy going.. i have to even get after him to make sure he eats.. 🙁

Oh well.. i should try and relax..!!!

I decided to blog down my thoughts because i am so far away from home.. and sometimes just don’t know who to tell my heartfelt feelings to.

Too many things to think about and make out of .. and to plan for .. now that I am a mom and also a spouse to someone.

So I hope this gives me some sort of relieve and comfort .. to speak my mind.