Well.. Thursday came and went.. and we are at Friday today. Chloe’s form teacher was sick since yesterday.. and it got me more worried today.. because I was afraid that the relieve teacher didn’t know what was going on. And fearing that Chloe might stumble again.. I decided to quickly ask the relieve teacher if she knew about Chloe’s special need for the bathroom help, in which she replied she did. As i was walking outta the school, i took another look at Chloe. .and she had my photo frame on her desk and staring at it. *sob*… oh it breaks my heart.
During break time at about 10.15am, we were at the school to visit.. and they didn’t get to eat inside the class like they always do.. and in the end.. Chloe didn’t get to run around at all, she only had time to finish eating. I was devastated. *sigh*. Maybe, we are wrong to push her to school so early, she is barely 5 yrs old.. and doing what a 6 or 7 years old is doing. I feel like a really bad mother right now and i’m so not kidding.. coz’ as I’m writing this.. i’m sobbing as well. This is so hard .. we want what is best for her.. but i really feel she may not be ready for the pressure.. and the long separation from us. I am seriously considering taking her out .. and putting her in pre-school for the rest of the year. Heart breaking .. to see her so longing for me.