Humans are weird – don’t you think. I used to make fun of a girlfriend who would go to church when she was separated from her husband years ago but when she got back together with her husband, she stopped going to church. So she conveniently forgot about God ? Or did she finished using God and had no need for him, now that she is happy again?
Well, well, little did I know, years later when I found out I had cancer, I bargain with God too, that if my biopsy wasn’t cancer, I promised to go to Church with my entire family every Sunday. I started praying too, I started reading the Daily Bread – I started seeking for God, seeking for His comfort, seeking for help.
Of course, I still had cancer, I still had to do chemo, I still had to do radiation and I still had to go thru’ all the horrid stuff but God did carry me thru’. And of course, like others, I too seek God at my convenience. I too conveniently forget to read our Daily Bread until later in the day. ( I do still get to it everyday) but I am less enthusiastic ? or has it become less important because we already made used of God for what we want?
Are all humans so selfish and only do things to benefit ourselves ? I’m trying not to be that kind of God believer. I do believe in a higher power, I do believe there is a God but I also gotta constantly remind myself, to not seek God only at my convenience and only when I need something. The Higher power isn’t there for that. So what is the Higher power there for ?