Change Yourself

So I saw a psychologist about my anxiety attacks – which I haven’t had for a long time now – but my family doctor figures I should talk to someone – and maybe – they can teach me methods to control my anxiety attacks – besides the medication I am taking. For those who are wondering – I had asked for treatment and medication on my own – because I pride myself as being able to identify a problem and try to nip its bud from the beginning. I didn’t want my anxiety attacks to affect chloe mostly because I had it bad the last time I experienced it.

Anyhow, at the back of my mind – I know exactly what the problem is – and all these years – I’ve been pushing it at the back of my mind. I’m able to identify the problem and I cannot ask PB to change for me – because I have in the past – so this time I’m going to change for myself and learn to take even greater care of myself first. I shall strive to have the “tidak apa” attitude from now on – and only do things that will first take care of myself. You cannot hope for others to help you – you have to change – only you can change yourself – to help with your health situation. So there – I realized that – and hope it isn’t too late. And yes – I missed home and my friends back home – the familiarity – the food – so I will strive to go home soon for a long visit. Wait for me Singapore!

Tis’ That Time Of The Year Already !

Yes ! it’s that time of the year again and here you see Chloe’s grampie making me my very own pumpkin – how sweet! chloe was all excited when she brought it back on the weekend. You can’t carved the name on after it has grown – you have to crave it before it gets big.

And this is Chloe’s – nice eh – filled up the whole pumpkin with her name.

The Man & His Gadgets

PB decided that he would get an iphone this time since his cellphone’s contract is ending soon. Why he needs an iphone? he said it’s easier when we need to be out of town for a short while – we don’t need to bring our netbook – we can use the iphone to check our emails and go online. Killing two birds with one stone – so he said – plus it didn’t cost him an extra – just another 3 years contract – which he normally does anyways – no lost to him – he said. But with this new iphone – he will be getting an iphone warranty because knowing him – he may just break the glass screen from sitting on it – when he forgets to take it out of his pocket. I’m kinda excited to see the iphone too – after all, it’s a new gadget for me too – hehe!

Baby Shower Of A Friend

A customer of our store – turned into friend is having a baby shower today – I’m kinda excited because I don’t have many friends around here. I don’t know if it is just us – too busy – or people just don’t like to mix business with pleasure. But those who eventually become friends – become good friends – and they stay really good to us. This friend is the same – they are always looking out for us and taking care of Chloe. So when I was invited – I was only too glad to go – plus – I didn’t even procrastinate and gotten around to get the presents for them a week in advance – and a good thing we did – because as usual – things got pretty crazy here – and with Chloe having in service in school – meaning no school – so it worked out. More on the baby shower later – promise with lots of pictures.

Halloween Party Invitations

We are starting to receive our Halloween Party Invitations already and Halloween is a month away. Some people are really organized eh ? which makes me want to get our Christmas Party Invitations going to. Knowing what a procrastinator I am – and PB being the nonchalant type – if I don’t do it on my own – he’ll probably conveniently forget about it. So yes ! I’m ordering some special invitations soon – that way – I can start planning my Christmas menu and decide what to do for Christmas supper. I know it’s early but they say time flies and before you know it Christmas will be here. Do you have the list of people you want to invite for your Christmas party yet? I don’t – so I better start cracking.

Rewards Or Bribes?

Like many parents – we want the easy way out with our kids – so that we can carry on with what we are doing. Most times – it’s because we think we have no time – so we tell our kids – if you do this – I will do that for you or I will buy this for you. Are you as guilty as I am? some parents said it is not a bribe but a reward for good behavior – what do you say? is it a bribe or a reward?

I try and justify it as a reward but eventually you have to face up to the truth and it is a bribe. How do I know? because now Chloe would say to me – if i do this for you – will you buy me a toy? hhahaha!!! so yes – be careful how you reward your kids – because they will see it as a bribe and in the future – they are going to expect something from you every time you want them to do something – which they already should do it – because it is like their responsibility.

Stop ! And Watch Your Kids

Yesterday evening – Chloe, PB and I were in the computer room and then she was talking about something and had the cutest, cheekiest smile – and I caught that cheeky smile in her – like the ones she had yesterday. Sometimes, I managed to capture it on photo – sometimes I don’t and I feel like the luckiest mom – because moments like that are priceless. So I asked PB – did you see that expression on Chloe’s face – in which of course PB did not – for his is oblivious most times – hahah! so I told PB – he is missing all the good stuff – coz’ they don’t stay young forever like this and they don’t have cheeky smiles like that forever too.

Kids are so precious and like I always said – God’s gift ! Chloe if you know her – you will know she is the cutest and sweetest kid. Sure she can be a brat – but most times – she is a pretty funny, mischievous and smart kid. She haven’t spent a lot of time with her grandparents – because for the last 6 yrs – she refused to go on her own to visit. This year in March – she decided that she would visit on her own – but come summer – her grandparents were too busy to take her every week. Now that fall is here – Grammie don’t even have one day a week to spend with her because she is still busy. I told PB – they are gonna miss out on the good times – she don’t stay this cute for very long. Soon she will grow older and she won’t wanna go anywhere with us – but her friends. Have you stopped and watch your kids lately? they don’t stay this cute forever. Stop – don’t miss out!

Welcome Fall 2010

Well, the fall is here – the weather is getting colder in this small little town and Chloe had been in school for almost 3 weeks now. She settled into school this year – a lot quicker than we expected. In fact, this year – we see more changes in my little princess – no more teddy at school and no more sippy cup and no more fussing about school.

While Chloe is settling into school – we all got sick last week – and with no help at the store – and Chloe’s grammie couldn’t take her on Saturdays – it was definitely hard on us – but as usual – we survived and feel a lot better now. I also took a bad fall at the store last week – while playing with Chloe – because I didn’t wanna leave her to play on her own for too long. So because of the fall – I couldn’t do very much – knees with rug burn and the entire hand from shoulder to wrist all bruised and unable to do much either – but we survived the week.

The store had been busy – and people are already shopping for Christmas – and us – we are making the most of our new routines and new school year but most importantly – we continue to focus on our health and and my fitness routine. Also, I’ve come to a new resolution and will think first for myself and Chloe before any other things – from this day on – I will strive to do one thing – and that is to bring Chloe and myself home to visit family and friends. Soon everyone – soon – I will be able to travel – on my own with Chloe and go home for a much needed break.

Seeing The Positive Of Your Child

I often complained that PB don’t see enough of the positive side of Chloe – instead – he likes to growl at her. I know he doesn’t do it intentionally but that’s the way he is. To me – he sees the bratty side of Chloe – the side where she wants to get into his way all the time and seeking for attention all the time. To me – he sees a child who has no manners and interrupts us whenever we have to talk to a customer. I can fully understand PB’s frustration sometimes – I’m no saint either and of course – we want to teach Chloe the right ways too – but she is but a child – and sometimes I find that PB forgets that. I too, forget that sometimes – and have to constantly remind myself.

But I am able to constantly see the positive side of Chloe – like today – I brought her to the park and she wanted to pick chestnuts with another kid – and she was quite a distance from me – but I need not shout for her to come back – she motioned to me that she was going further but when she saw that i shook my head – saying no – she told the other kid – that she wasn’t allowed to go further. Now that i call positively amazing ! to me – I think she was really sensible.

This evening – after supper I wasn’t feeling good – and told chloe i was gonna lie down for a bit. Sure she came in several times and insisted that I have some light on – in the bedroom even though my door was open. But that’s only because she is a kid and she needed some sort of assurance. She came in several more times and woke me up each time – but I see the positive side in her – she still let me lie down for a bit. Are you seeing the positive side in your kid? I’m trying to make PB see those positive side in Chloe and not growl at her so much – just because she is being a kid. What about you?

I Miss My Esthetician!

I just went for a facial – the other day – and I tell you – I sure missed my Esthetician from back home in Singapore. Her name is Linda – and she does the best best adult acne treatment and she has the best technique for massage your face and your back. For the last 10 yrs, I have tried several spas and none compared with her. Don’t get me wrong – they are good but I still prefer Linda’s. I think it is because she really takes care of my needs – like taken care of the white heads around my eyes – and also doing my eyebrow shaping without any extra charge. Plus a quick 5 mins massage after – you are done your facial – pure bliss. Of course, she has special portion for all types of skins – if you have dark circles or if you are having a bad acne this morning. Yes! i dream of home – I dream of someone to take care of my acne problems without being critical – I dream of the familiar spa – the familiar hands. Oh when can I go home for a visit?