And My Journey Thru' Breast Cancer
It was all worth it.. the enduring of the pain..and the holding on.. and the moving to Canada… because without her.. life would have been meaningless. If i had to turn the clock back.. i wouldn’t have it any other way. Even though my fibroids grew so big after my pregnancy.. and i had to wait .. for her to be older.. before i had my operation.. and waiting also because i was afraid.. i may not see her grow up. It was all worth it.. because she is the Love Of My Life.
If i could turn the clock back, i want to be a massage therapist. I kid you not! after having my first massage some 10 yrs ago in a spa, i truly wished there were more massage therapy schools back home. I would have definitely chosen this line of work.. and would have loved it.
For those who wants to see the pictures of my fibroids and uterus during my hysterectomy operation, you can head over to my health blog : DesperateHousecows. The said pictures are up.. but please be warned. .that if you do not have the stomach for blood, grossed looking things.. that can make you faint and puke.. please do not go over there. I have started to journal my journey to the operation and post op information. .for those who may have friends or family who might be having the same problem as I. That way.. with my information recorded.. they can see for themselves and be prepared for what may come.
Watch out for pictures of my huge fibroids on my health blog. I feel well enough to start writing abit at a time. So don’t forget to check out Desperate HouseCows. But I’ve to warn you all first.. it’s gross.. and ultra shocking.. so if you are not into very graphic.. and bloody stuff.. please don’t head over to my health blog.
You will know you feel better.. when you want to look pretty .. dressed up.. or like me.. wanna get my eyebrows done. Yes.. this was how i felt today.. after waking up. But you see .. i stretched myself a little bit too much.. by going shopping.. and also eating out. 3 hrs.. is a long time to be out.. so by the time .. i got home.. i was quite exhausted.. tummy not feeling too good. .from the food i ate.. and slept for an hour immediately.
But you know what.. ?? after the second emergency operation.. i listened to my body alot more.. and didn’t pushed myself so much anymore. I wanna get well soon.. but the only way to do it.. is not being stubborn. .and pushed myself.. to the limit. So yes.. wanting to look and feel pretty is the road to recovery .. i believed. What about you ..??
For years.. since the brat was born .. i have my hair tied up.. because of the convenience.. and because looking after a infant means having her pull your hair.. as and when she wants. But now that she is so much older.. and like i said before.. my surgeries.. sorta made me wake up. .that there are other things more important. So i’m going to highlight my hair.. and literally let my hair down.. and take care of myself more from now on. Not that i haven’t.. but truth be told.. i neglected myself.. alot because of the brat and the business. So yes.. as soon as i’m well.. i’m heading out to Francine’s.
Ever feel like you donch wanna sleep.. because there is just so much you wanna do.. and not enough time.. and what a waste it is to sleep it away. I feel this way all the time and i shouldn’t .. because i should be rested. But i just can’t help feeling .. i wanna do more. Whether it is to watch a movie.. or to blog hop.. or to jot down my musing.. or doing housework… or just watching out the window.. at the quiet streets.
After my operation.. the first thing i noticed is .. my 24 weeks pregnant tummy is gone..! woohoo..!!! i can see my feet again..!! I used to think that i might need some diet pills even after my op.. but now that i had 2 operations in 2 weeks.. and my diet watched .. i don’t really think .. i need them now.
As today’s parent .. we all loved our child more than ourselves. Giving them best food .. and teaching them the right way and taking care of their health is what we do best. But protecting your child with child insurance is very important too. In case, of an emergency, you know that you can give your child the best health care.. of course we are not looking forward for these emergencies.. but you want to know.. that nothing can stop you from getting the best health care for them.. should the need arises. That is what good parenting is all about. Seeing the unforeseen.
You wouldn’t believed what i have to write .. about my family doctor. My dressing from my second operation came out.. and PB had called to see if he could do the dressing for me. Guess what the secretary said..?? That he can.. BUT .. i’ve gotta bring my own sterile strips.. and whatever needed for the dressing..!!
PENGSHAN or NOT..???!!!??? Yes…!! got this kinda doctor or not.. you tell me..!!!! AIYOH..!! i really donch know what to say about my family doctor lah..!!! Wait i get well.. i’m gonna SACK him..!